My body and mind have a love hate relationship. Meaning when it does and looks mostly how I want, I love it and when it doesn’t often times I hate it.
The thing is my body is pretty smart. It knows what it needs, when it needs it, and often the correct doses, the trick is my mind likes to be in control of everything and thinks it should get to decide all the above. Typical examples of this for me, is choosing to eat only at certain times of the day and only having certain quantities, exercising to a specific degree at a specific weekly volume, sleeping ‘x’ amount of hours, avoiding certain food products, or pushing through obvious signs of sickness or injury to participate in activities. As I write this it sounds silly even to me, the one making these choices. Why not just eat when I am hungry? Why workout when my body is begging for rest? Why not just go to bed when I am tired, chances are I will want to wake up earlier anyhow?
I think, as women, myself especially, have fallen into feeling like we have to met a certain standard or expectation. The question is, what happens if we don’t? If I don’t eat three square meals a day with two snacks evenly spaced out or don’t workout for ‘x’ amount of minutes each day what happens? Well, I am quickly coming to see that what actually happens is nothing. No one seems to care, comment, or even notice. It’s funny, I think sometimes I can get so caught up in what I think I should be doing and feeling like someone is keeping tabs when really they are not. I believe I have adopted these expectations from media and society but blame myself for internalizing each. Only I can choose to make or not make these expectations part of my life style, so to help me choose not to, I am making some goals for myself.
1. Eat when I am hungry, period
2. Eat what I am craving
3. Do NOT eat when I am not hungry
4. Stop exercise when in true pain (duh?)
5. Go to bed when I am tired
6. Drink more water
7. Do not place a time/distance expectation on runs
That is a lot of goals for me! I think 1,3, and 7 are going to be the toughest but have to give it a whirl!